{"id":2512,"date":"2019-08-23T22:15:13","date_gmt":"2019-08-24T02:15:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/?p=2512"},"modified":"2019-08-23T22:34:13","modified_gmt":"2019-08-24T02:34:13","slug":"awoken-to-another-closed-morning","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/2019\/08\/23\/awoken-to-another-closed-morning\/","title":{"rendered":"awoken to another closed morning"},"content":{"rendered":"

<\/p>\n

running from obscurity
\ntoo late to hate
\nand too early to fear the sun
\ntoo early to conceive failure
\nand too late to write
\ntoo tired to make breakfast
\nand too distracted, abstracted
\nto consider another work day<\/p>\n

split from the herd and
\nand destined for a sort of lazy greatness
\nall i want is poetry, cats, metal,
\na(crazy)good woman, and wine
\nbut the word, like the woman
\neludes me<\/p>\n

wandering on wagered bones
\nthese moments of nothing
\ncontinue to stretch
\nlike tired old muscles
\nwaiting for the workout to end
\nthere’s just too many bills
\nand too many obligations
\nwhere are all those transcendent
\nhallucinations, and passive inspirations?<\/p>\n

just when i’m starting to think
\nthat better days, better poems,
\nand better women are on the horizon
\nreality sounds it’s diabolical laughter,
\nand snaps me back into this empty chair
\nseated with the same ole shit
\nand staring at a black screen<\/p>\n

perhaps it’s penance
\nand i recite this perpetual prayer
\na peculiar behavior
\nof envisioning the future
\nyet the clock is ticking
\nas the hand reaches for another cigarette,
\nor another sip of black coffee
\nin hopes of lifting the fog
\nfrom this cathartic brain<\/p>\n

morning has it\u2019s own treacheries
\nand the rain remembers it’s refugees
\nwashing away sin
\nlike some sort of faulty cleric<\/p>\n

faithless and fabricated from
\nthe famine of a fallen star
\ni’m unbalanced by all this feminine energy
\ntoo much some days
\nand too little others
\nmost seeking something,
\nsome seeking nothing
\nand those are the hardest ones
\nthe ones you have to work for
\nand
\nthere are so many
\ninanimate conversations
\ntall tales
\nbled like wild flowers
\nacross a neon screen
\nand
\nthe silence at night kills me
\nand
\ni’m not\u00a0 as young as i used to be
\nand
\nsanity like suicide
\nis such a fleeting idea<\/p>\n

someone once asked me why i have so many cats
\n“my cats keep me sane, which is probably why
\ni have four, it takes a lot” i responded<\/p>\n

as a young boy
\nall i ever wanted to be
\nwas a pirate, wizard, or time traveler
\ninnocence is lost to the living
\nand somewhere in the distance
\npeter pan is rolling the dice and laughing<\/p>\n

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