{"id":2239,"date":"2019-06-14T12:03:09","date_gmt":"2019-06-14T16:03:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/?p=2239"},"modified":"2019-06-14T12:03:09","modified_gmt":"2019-06-14T16:03:09","slug":"retreat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/2019\/06\/14\/retreat\/","title":{"rendered":"retreat"},"content":{"rendered":"

<\/p>\n

I (the vision)<\/p>\n

“drink wine, eat tacos,
\ndrop acid, be a slut,
\nand start a revolution”<\/p>\n

sound advice
\nthe old gods aren’t dead
\nthey’re just forgotten
\nbut now as i sit in this
\nwet morning smoke break
\nthe clouds are rolling in
\nthreatening to consumes
\nall these wandering dogs
\nand empty park benches
\nand suddenly i remember
\nthere’s no mystery here
\nit’s simple chemistry
\nabsent collaboration
\ninspiration
\ni’m well on my way to living(and dying)
\nlike never before
\nthis is everything and nothing
\nmixed in a toilet bowl of grim satisfaction<\/p>\n

II (fierce reality)<\/p>\n

human clay, nothing but
\nodd shapes twisted by
\nmalice and the friction of love
\nunder the haze of a sober moon
\nfelled, i swoon
\nas the metal machine comes to tame me
\nor possibly just claim me
\nthere’s no use fighting it<\/p>\n

i’m not a poet, not really
\ni’m just a guy who
\nsleepwalks through days
\nconsuming energies, emotions
\nand shitting them out on paper as i try
\nto make sense of this bewildering complex
\nand
\ni always to do it to myself
\ni do it real good
\nall or nothing
\nthere is no “in between”
\ni’m so extreme
\nyou can’t even see it
\ni’m never passive
\nwho has time for that shit<\/p>\n

so what is this experiment anyway?
\nsomebody told me it’s called life
\nwell, what are we waiting for?
\nfinality? fuck that!
\nshifting and perpetually navigating
\nthese cursed roads
\nwho could ask for a better adventure?
\nstill, late at night i wonder
\nwhen will permanence rule the day?<\/p>\n

III (a waking dream)<\/p>\n

short days and long nights
\nrushed fantasies
\nroutines are what kill the human soul
\ni engage in a
\nweekly regress
\nit’s an escape
\nto nowhere special
\neven still, i can almost feel you<\/p>\n

ferment and forget
\nit’s these
\ncrossed eyes, crossed souls
\nthat always do me in
\neverything all at once
\nthen, nothing
\nbut wait
\nthere’s a snapshot of uneasy relief
\nnow, lost and waiting for that next moment
\na moment that will forever change
\nwho we are
\ncan you feel it approaching?<\/p>\n

ohh to feel alive in this pale fiction
\nslow, delicate
\none sip, one breath,
\nto taste one perfect kiss
\nbefore death
\nwho could ask for more?<\/p>\n

i could tell you tall tales
\nto tantalize your senses
\ni could use words to wrap you
\nin virtual ecstasy
\nblank stare
\npoetry
\nit’s a way to tap the mind
\nand entwine
\ncarnal pleasures
\nunwind<\/p>\n

shedding skin to dispel
\nsecrets i probably shouldn’t tell
\nwould you respond?
\ncould you forgive this primitive new dawn?<\/p>\n

another page to turn
\nhow easy it is to be forgotten
\nbefore you were ever known
\nold soul
\nit’s no use
\ni know you
\ni could fight
\nor i could run
\nbut i can’t seem to pull the trigger
\nof love’s damaged gun<\/p>\n

sing
\nspeak peace in calligraphy
\nshow me a secret place
\nspeak of foreign plots and plans
\npaint a masterpiece with my eyes
\nplay the guitar and dance
\nlive an ancient folk tale
\nnaked, light one more fire
\nand reveal your demon<\/p>\n

fuck these passive traditions
\nwe inherit nothing
\nas we edit then burn unwritten laws
\nwith perception folded into misconception
\nsuffering through blind acceptance
\na new beast of creativity is spawned<\/p>\n

i want you
\nnow
\ncome here
\ndestroy me<\/p>\n

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