<\/p>\n
the creation and destruction of love
\nclaims of chaos
\nso much left unfinished
\nthe color of eyes, melded
\nblue white surprise
\nwe were fire, almost twin flames
\nfor a time burning hotter than the sun
\ni loved you like it was the first time
\nand the last
\nlaughing, your smile changed my world
\nwandering bookstores at 7pm
\nsex on the shore drifting down the river
\ndrinking fishing planting gardens
\nclimbing mountains, bonfires
\nnew and unfamiliar adventures
\nreading, listening to eachother
\nwatching documentaries
\ndriving with no destination
\nnaughty card games
\nunfamiliar video games and music
\nconcerts camping
\nwriting painting
\nyou were my artist and my muse
\nand i was yours completely
\nhow many times a day did i daydream
\ntracing the lines of your body in my mind
\ncounting the hours till i would see you again
\nconstant inspiration
\nthinking of the next best way
\ni could help you find happiness
\nsympathy and support
\ncurled up together in bed
\nthe best part of the day
\nconversations real, open, and meant to be
\ncommunion, the soul of us
\ndreams of the future
\nkissing, caressing
\nholding hands on the couch
\nrubbing your hands and your feet
\nbrushing your hair
\nholding you and never wanting to let go
\nyour amazing sunday morning breakfasts
\ni watched you sing, dance and cook
\ncaptivated and enthralled
\nmy definition of happiness was in part, time spent with you
\nnot everyday was wonderful
\nbut each day with you
\nwas better than the last
\nyou opened the flood gates
\nand taught me how to love
\nunconditional love with acceptance and no judgement
\nwas how i loved you, so for that i thank you
\nhow many times did i say those three words
\nand though I meant it each time
\nthey could never really convey how
\ntruly wonderful your were to me
\nhow is it that we were so out of sync
\nyou gave me a reason to let you in
\nand then you left and when you did you
\ntook a part of me with you
\ndo you know what it\u2019s like
\nto feel forever incomplete
\ni\u2019d sell my soul for one more embrace
\ni have to get this out, to let it go
\nyet somehow i feel it will never end
\nthis goodbye just feels wrong
\ni still think of you more than i\u2019d like
\nhow i just wasn\u2019t good enough for you
\nall i ever wanted to be was yours
\nbut you didn\u2019t see, just how much
\nof this life i gave to you
\ni remember, why don\u2019t you
\nsome days i wish i could forget
\ni see you now enjoying your life with others
\ni\u2019m happy for you but i\u2019m sad too
\nbecause i\u2019m no longer there
\nthe worst part is\u00a0none of this matters(to you)anymore
\ndammit, i\u2019ve relapsed again
\nand karma is a cruel bitch
\nmemories are the best and worst part of the day
\nyet life goes on, shaped into the next scripture
\nthat is not a poem<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,4],"tags":[48,59,51],"class_list":["post-1582","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-musings","category-poems","tag-love","tag-memories","tag-moving-on"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1582","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1582"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1582\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1590,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1582\/revisions\/1590"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1582"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1582"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1582"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}