{"id":1504,"date":"2018-04-06T21:38:52","date_gmt":"2018-04-07T01:38:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/?p=1504"},"modified":"2018-04-06T21:38:52","modified_gmt":"2018-04-07T01:38:52","slug":"too-real-for-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/2018\/04\/06\/too-real-for-now\/","title":{"rendered":"too real for now"},"content":{"rendered":"

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no good at love
\nno good at life
\ncaring isn\u2019t sharing
\nand this noble head
\nis held in hands trembling
\nand tired<\/p>\n

woe to the fallen hero
\nwith tragic revelries entertained
\nheir to winter’s spite
\na vagabond of solstice twilight
\nwith a heart dampened and constrained<\/p>\n

surrounded by four walls yellowed
\nwith stale cigarette smoke
\ni sit under empty stars
\nwhile cats claw
\nthese dusty couches<\/p>\n

it\u2019s omnidirectional loneliness
\ncreated with distant words
\nand holy deeds
\npoetic logic is evicted
\nleading to sacred scarring
\nof internal needs<\/p>\n

symphonies of sad poets
\npermeate the air
\nas i sip gated memories like
\na vintage glass of wine
\nremembering
\nwhat was so easily forgotten
\nstruggling to pass the time
\nin hopes of a revelation
\nto type an eternal rhyme<\/p>\n

wandering, wondering
\nwhen to pray
\ni still have daydreams of you
\nand i think of how we never danced<\/p>\n

i\u2019m not a melancholic man by nature
\nit\u2019s just that
\nthe word manifests
\nwithin certain maladies
\nand sadness seems the only way
\nto create a meaningful line
\nis that the exception to the rule
\nor to one man\u2019s blues<\/p>\n

this end is virtual
\ncontrasting and conspiring to
\nsubsidize and sterilize our
\nseasonal ruin
\ni want to stay where it\u2019s comfortable
\nbut safety only kills you slowly
\non the inside<\/p>\n

bend and descend
\ninto this maelstrom
\nof longing and regret
\nwaiting for the sunrise of renewal<\/p>\n

i\u2019ve marched past too many
\nopen windows and closed doors
\noutclassed by
\nblessed drunks with input like
\nprophetic peasants held low
\nas they seek low-cost providence
\nand strike deals with a mystic healer
\nrevisiting captured souls
\nrecorded in naked tomes
\nrevealing the mind’s slave dealer<\/p>\n

almost old
\nand
\nalmost bold
\nbut too tired to recognize
\nthe good times
\nwith hands held still
\ncovering misshapen eyes<\/p>\n

there\u2019s this nervous twitch
\njust below the eyelid
\nalmost like morse code
\nbut i can\u2019t understand the message<\/p>\n

i remember a strange wilderness
\nand the birth of dreams
\na setting of sunshine
\nin the cosmic punchline
\nof this subtle poetry
\nnow, no more human
\nthan the last
\nand suddenly cast
\nas an odd machine<\/p>\n

it\u2019s always the same
\nwith these heated beginnings
\nand the outcome rolls crooked
\non a cheated roulette wheel<\/p>\n

the wind still blows
\nbut it sounds different
\nthe sun still sets
\nbut it looks different
\ni still fall asleep every night
\nbut it feels different<\/p>\n

sometimes love just dies
\nand sometimes our souls with it
\ncosmically set
\nto eventually pass<\/p>\n

everything i have
\nis really nothing at all
\ni could give it all up
\nto live simple
\njust a stack of books
\nwith cats and a dog
\nrunning around carefree
\ncandlelight with soft music
\na glass of wine
\nsurrounded by art
\nand your smile to light the way<\/p>\n

\"236-too-real-for-now\"<\/a><\/p>\n

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