{"id":1481,"date":"2018-04-02T20:31:31","date_gmt":"2018-04-03T00:31:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/?p=1481"},"modified":"2018-04-03T06:48:07","modified_gmt":"2018-04-03T10:48:07","slug":"the-shadow","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/poeticexorcisms.com\/index.php\/2018\/04\/02\/the-shadow\/","title":{"rendered":"the shadow"},"content":{"rendered":"

<\/p>\n

sunset at the backyard diner
\nbrowsing through a vacuous menu of
\ngreen flowers, dog shit, and cheap wine
\nhe\u2019s pulling slow strings
\nfrom scattered playthings<\/p>\n

reduced to the status
\nof a beggar
\na bum
\nand a whore
\ntrying
\nin passive lament
\nhe\u2019s lying
\nand dying
\nsending out signals of surrender
\nweaving and wandering through
\ndreamy streets all too familiar
\nand seeking comfort in eyes of strangers<\/p>\n

awaiting discovery
\nhe\u2019s living for yesterday
\nand suffering for tomorrow
\nconstantly edited
\nbut rarely refined<\/p>\n

and there are
\ntoo many compliments
\nthat don\u2019t mean a thing
\nwith a silence in the background
\nthat rings too true<\/p>\n

no likes no views
\ndisconnected in every conceivable way
\nit\u2019s an intentional accident
\nand fools cry best
\nwhen held in the arms
\nof innocent women<\/p>\n

used once
\nand over again
\nsleeping for insomnia
\nthere\u2019s all this noise
\nhe hates it
\ncan\u2019t stand it
\ncraving anger he\u2019s
\nrearranging vacancies
\nin a room that never changes
\nrecycled with a new coat of paint
\nand marched down the runway
\nhe\u2019s faking it till he makes it<\/p>\n

so now, he takes the trip
\nwith words and worlds
\nthat lead him to
\na madhouse of his own creation<\/p>\n

honesty, and dishonesty
\nalmost open yet somehow closed
\nselfish, selfless
\nappreciation, connection
\ndistractions and disasters
\nrejection, then disconnection
\nlove turned to hate
\nwith heroes and villains
\na new identity in solitude
\nsex, indifference
\nold habits and new habits
\nmixed in a super collider of
\nmeditation, fabrication
\ndrugs, alcohol
\naddiction, recovery
\non the path to
\nself medication or possibe healing
\nchoices of hope
\nand consequences of despair
\nmagic, malaise
\nwar and peace
\nfeeling old yet living new
\nwriter\u2019s block masked within inspiration
\nthe freedom of a warrior\u2019s stride
\nand the slavery of cowards that hide
\nrunning or walking
\nit\u2019s the same old shit
\nbut not a different day
\ntell me where is the heart
\nand what is a soul
\nfishbowl or foxhole
\ncircling around this elusive goal<\/p>\n

winter never ends
\nit only sleeps
\nand there are
\nphases of the moon
\nto worship
\nand cycles of the sun
\nto divide
\nperhaps it\u2019s just
\nchaos personified
\nwaiting to come undone
\nat the perfect moment<\/p>\n

\"234-the-shadow\"<\/a><\/p>\n

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